Yes, I am a little bit disappointed that others came up to me privately and said, “good job, Austin needs more of this.” I would prefer there were discussions rather than private bashing going on. But I understand that writing isn’t a strong point for everyone and even if it is, this town is small enough that some toes will be stepped on. But I believe the necessity outweighs the nicety. Besides, I do have some.
Yes, I am ambitious. My goal was to cover all of Austin. I mean really, how big is it? Well, its bigger than me. I will try to cut back, but I don’t know how long that will last since I have the urge to visit Dallas, Houston and San Antonio especially. And I did notice my thoughts getting shorter and sloppier. I think cutting back and focusing will help me tighten up the verbage. But I wonder, if I only write on a select few, will I only be commenting on my favorite and end up giving everything a GREAT or a GOOD? Maybe I’ll just be an a-hole and write only about BAD ones. Let me meditate on that for a while.
Yes, it was just a joke. I was going to let it ride out until Monday morning, when I planned to post my overdue reviews. But I panicked and gave in. I did it because I am desperate for attention. I constantly need reassurance and this was one way of getting people to leave comments. Not as many as I would have liked, but I enjoyed the feedback. And I did get you. What would have happened had it been for real? Would someone have filled my spot? Would our community have let my efforts be buried in the past? Oh yeah, there used to be critical writing. But not anymore.
When I started this I was trying to continue my art. Responsibility is what drives me. This kind of work has to be someone’s reponsibility. So until the boss shows up, I’m in charge. Like I said, I wanted to cover all of Austin’s art shows, good and bad. But I am just one person and that is a daunting task when you already have a full time job. At the time, it seemed like an equalizer, and educational tool. If I check out every show then the reader will be able to catch on with what’s challenging and what is merchandise. Eventually I would have stopped the rain of BAD and challenged the more exciting spaces with my reviews. We’ll see how it goes. For now, I’ll keep working on clearing out my backlog and will keep visitng spaces until the Blanton opens. By then I hope to have a plan to improve my writing and determine what shows get featured.
I’ll tell you ’bout what I sees.